I had a revelation this morning.
Okay, maybe not a revelation, probably more like common knowledge that suddenly made sense to me.
On my way to work this morning, I get a text from my nanny boss telling me I don’t need to come in today.
So I turn around and head back home and decide that instead of praying in the car every morning like I always do, I will sit in my closet and do some much needed Bible study time.
But oftentimes, I get into my little “quiet time” nook and I don’t know where to start.
I always start with prayer, but then I’m not sure where to go. I know I should be reading the Bible and truth be told, I want to read it…but where? Just pick a random verse and hope it applies to your particular situation?
So I began a devotion on my Bible app, and one of the recommended verses was from the book of Matthew. It was a parable called “The Three Bags of Gold / The Three Servants”, depending on what version you’re reading.
To sum it up, the story is about a master with three servants. He entrusts part of his wealth to each of them when he leaves one day. While he’s gone, the first two servants use the gold they’ve been given, work, and earn more bags of gold. The third servant, not knowing what to do, buries his gold in the ground and does nothing with it.
When the master returns, the first two servants show him the work they’ve done, and all the additional gold they’ve earned. The third servant comes back with the one bag of gold he was given, and nothing more. The first two servants (obviously) are praised for their work with the master saying “Well done, good and faithful servant.” The third one is chastised for doing nothing with what he was given.
In Matthew 25:29, the master says “To those who use well what they are given, even more will be given, and they will have an abundance. But from those who do nothing, even what little they have will be taken away.”
Use what you already have dummy.
Numerous revelations came from this one light bulb.
No. 1 being: Use what you already have. We each are given unique gifts by the Spirit (Romans 12:6). And when you combine your passions with the gift(s) you’ve been given by the Spirit, you can use that to find your calling and work to serve God and others. But you have to use what you have.
Use the talents, passions, gifts, opportunities, that you have right now. He’s already given us so many incredible blessings. It’s our job to find out what they are, and use them now.
For me, I’m a planner. I want everything laid out in front of me in a nice blueprint, where I can see all the plans and details. But that’s not how God works. He doesn’t let you see the entire plan, He only lets you see the next step. And you must trust Him for the rest. I’ve been so caught up in trying to plan my entire career based on decisions I make now. But that’s the last thing I should be worried about, let alone even attempt to control.
I always think I need more before I can start. A better laptop, more money, a different location, more schooling, a better state of mind, more wisdom, better weather, more time. I’m always wanting more and better before I even begin. But God wants me to start now. Not when I have a MACBook, not when I’m back in North Carolina, not when I’ve been through 7 more years of school, not when I have enough money (whatever that means). NOW. With what I already have, where I already am, with what I already know.
No. 2 revelation being that I’m a lot like the third servant. Because if someone entrusted me with a bag of gold as part of their wealth, I’d more than likely do the same thing and keep it hidden. Because I would rather hide it and know it’s safe, rather than use it and risk losing it, or having something bad come out of it. And sadly, that’s the way I look at a lot of life. I would much rather keep things to myself, hidden away, until they’re prefect (which they never are), until I’m ready to use it or send it out into the world. I would rather NOT use it and keep it safe, for fear of using it and having it turn into something awful, or losing it (whatever it is: a blog, a craft, a piece of writing, an idea).
But God doesn’t work that way either. He can’t work on and multiply what I refuse to even use. And how in the world can I expect Him to show up and do these incredible things with something that I’m not even brave enough to risk? All it does is show 1) my fear, and 2) my lack of trust in God. Because if I truly trusted Him to take over and handle it, I would put everything I have out there for Him to use.
But I don’t.
I never have. I’ve always wished I would, and I still hope that I start to.
No. 3 revelation being that I still have so much more to learn about God and the Bible. There’s so much information and knowledge and wisdom packed into those 66 books and I’m just now scraping the surface. It opened my eyes to the wealth of knowledge that awaits me as I continue to read and learn.
So as I finish my Bible study, it’s clear to me what to do now.
For weeks I’ve been praying like a crazy woman, hoping to get some kind of direction or guidance about what to do.
And now, even though the exact path isn’t clear yet, at least I know the next step.
Passion + Gifts + Using Them
God will take care of the rest.
Don’t put your talents and gifts and passions in a bag, buried in the sand.
USE THEM. Even if you’re not sure what you’re doing or how you’re going to make it happen. Because the good news is that God already knows. Use what you have right now, where you are, to honor and glorify Him. He will take it from there. And hopefully, when I get to the pearly gates, God will come to greet me with a “Well done, my good and faithful servant”